she made it to 3

she made it to 3…

that is what I keep reminding myself this morning…

doesn't seem like that long ago that my firstborn daughter was wrapped snuggly in her nice blanket cocoon her mother would wrap her in, laying in her bed w/out a muscle moving or an eyelash fluttering…
today, just like yesterday and the last 365+ days, my firstborn is ANYTHING but that non-moving, every muscle relaxed, not a peep coming from her mouth, nor an eyelash fluttering baby of a couple years ago….

she made it to 3…

can she really already be 3?
if you ask her, she is probably actually more like 10 or even 11…
when God gave Lisa and I this unbelievable bundle of joy 3 years ago today, I am sure he had a nice little chuckle when I was holding her beaming with pride and joy…
i still beam today, just sometimes it isn't with pride and joy (and it always should be, so I am working on it)…

she made it to 3…

there are times when I just look at her and stare…
wondering, how could I have been allowed by God to create something so perfect and beautiful?
how and why would God give me the blessing of having the opportunity to raise her?
then she looks at me and with those big blue eyes beaming smiles and says, "I love you daddy."…
and I melt…
like butter left in a microwave just two seconds too long…

she made it to 3…

then I also have the other questions that I ask God….daily almost..
are you sure we didn't get her switched at the hospital with some other couple's child?
are you serious?
what kind of cruel joke is this?
honestly, if this is payback for that time back in junior high, I am SORRY…VERY SORRY…

she made it to 3…

there is nothing I would ever change about her though…
she is mine…she always will be and nothing can take her away from me…
I guess in some ways I am beginning to understand why my dad could never tell my sister "no" (or at least is seemed he couldn't)…
dad, I am getting it a little more each day…
it is tough…

she made it to 3….

Taylor, some day in the future you may read this and wonder why your dad is so crazy…
but honestly, I hope that some do you truly understand that everything I do today is for you, your sister and your mother…
I would do anything to protect you from all this world will bring your way…I won't always be able to, but I will try…
just always remember, you can talk to me…you can tell me anything…and I will always listen…

she made it to 3 and I love her more every day…

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